Emergency Discernment

Dear readers,

It is not often that I ask you to pray for me, but I feel that I am coming to a 'crossroads' in life (whether I am in the van or not). I would appreciate your prayers very much.

I feel like I am in something of a hole and that my current state in life, where I am living, my chaotic lifestyle, my lack of proper employment, my lack of a vocation and my really now being something of a perennial tick on the behinds of my parents, friends and now on the entire global Catholic online community, is becoming terribly tiresome. I'm 34 for Heaven's sake. It is kind of forcing me to look at how things are and where things are headed, or indeed, not headed, because things are headed nowhere. For a start, my front headlamps don't work properly.

Thankfully, I know that there is a way out of my current predicament (did I tell anyone I am meant to be getting married and yet I here I am begging on an online street corner?) and it involves a very good organisation in London where I would possibly thrive, marry, raise a family and serve the poor on a more full-time basis, rather than on casual night shifts. There I could garden, teach, lead projects, do family support work, admin, book-keeping or even music and share the diverse range of NVQs that only a perpetual student can obtain with an organisation started by a Catholic priest committed to raising awareness of the sufferings of the very poor.

As it happens, I doubt that this organisation would turn down a van at their family respite home for the poor and, unless the LMS Chairman wants to hire me as a full-time gardener, neither would I have any problems in being hired, because, er, its full-time volunteering and, to be honest, full-time volunteering is the only thing I'm any good at.

Since I wrote a blogpost asking for donations to help pay for my MOT, I have felt somewhat downcast. The reason is that while I am happy to receive donations generally for blogging, since we all have to live, it is 100% true to say that my use of the van would be for personal revenue to pay bills etc and, to be honest, I am not a very good businessman. I cannot see a 'man and van' or even a gardening business expanding and succeeding. Not with me at the wheel at any rate. Secondly, while I know full well that the Catholic community is exceedingly generous, I don't believe that the Catholic community should bail out my bank account because of my own van-based errors of judgment, even if the European Central Bank can spend €489,190,000,000 in bailing out an entire continent's banking system which is going to collapse anyway.

So, anyway, without further ado. Here's the plan. I'll call the organisation tomorrow to ask whether they want a van. I dare say that they could turn it into a minibus at their respite home for poor families in Frimley Green or use it to help poor families move and all that. I know they'll likely say yes and, in the meantime, I ask with more urgency that readers do send cheques to St Mary Magdalen's Church marked for my attention or use my Paypal account (I don't understand Paypal, at all, I don't know how to even link to it) to donate for a van for ATD Fourth World.

The only question then remains as to whether I will be driving it to London or Surrey a few months into the new year to become a permanent full-time volunteer to be joined by my fiancee sooner or later. The Good Counsel Network get second shout on it if they don't want it, unless they really want it, of course, in which case, er, its yours. So, readers, pray for me, that I may be graced to discern God's will for my life in this period of emergency discernment and please donate to the 2011 Christmas Van Appeal. Recommend me to the Sacred Heart of Jesus and pray for me as I pray for you.

In Domino, readers.

Oh, and watch this. I think Michael Voris has just changed my mind about the Turin Shroud. 34,000,000,000,000,000,000 watts! Oh my ...

Comments

Fortiter Pugnem said…
Got you covered, man. Prayers are on the way.
Richard Collins said…
Hang on in there Laurence, we all have mid lifes crises in our lives, mine began at the age of five!
Prayers offered, have a good Christmas.
Anonymous said…
Prayers Lawrence. Was going to send money but will wait until you are decided on what to do. GOd bless.
Prayers being offered for your intentions + I will ask for a Mass to be said for you, too.

What did you think about the Turin Shroud before?
The Bones said…
Thanks

RS, I thought it probably was the Holy Shroud, because the Church isn't into deceiving people. The fact that so many people have said 'I believe it is' is also a clue.
The Bones said…
Given Michael Voris's explanation, I believe it is the Shroud.
Mary O'Regan said…
Hi Laurence,

I gave your ballad-writing a plug at the end of an article that I wrote for The Christmas Catholic Herald - see page 12.

Just an idea, but would people commission you to write ballads? I know we're in the middle of a recession, but song-writing is eternal.

God bless,

Mary
The Bones said…
Thanks for the plug, Mary, but I don't think anyone is going to commission me to write ballads. My mini crisis isn't really about money, its about my life's direction and at the moment its going nowhere fast.
Adam said…
Prayers offered.

Have you thought about becoming a priest? I think you'd be perfect.
epsilon said…
Lawrence - All will be well, whatever happens, remember you are a precious child of God. May He bless you and bring you calm on this Christmas Eve
The Bones said…
Thank you all for your prayers.
I think i remember that St Ignatius said that you should never make a decision when disquiet or depressed. Corragio... and pray x
shadowlands said…
I have prayed for your intentions too. God Bless.

God will zap you soon!!!
Chris Hall said…
Any movement on the van or the job?

Frimley Green's a nice place and you have the lovely St Michael's Abbey in Farnborough just around the corner!
The Bones said…
The situation is more drastic. I have to declare it SORN but I have nowhere to park it off road. If you declare SORN (since I cannot pay for the MOT repairs) then it cannot be on a public highway, but a public highway is the only place I can park it.

Neither ATD or GCN have replied to my emails so far (its the Christmas break) so I have a problem. In two days the tax disc runs out. I can't renew the tax disc without an MOT. I can't declare SORN because I have nowhere to park off road.

Problem.